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Tuesday, August 31, 2004 Â Â Â Â Â

I am at home... d whole day. I am on MC... aha ah.. i am in pain. yes pain n i mean it. sianz... nid to start exercising n stuff le... but tt's if i gt time, jus realise i am having a unhealthy lifestyle. time to move n ya.. lead a betta lifestyle.

haven bin blogging... but anyway my internet service is back. FINALLI... thanks to Kae Woei.. my saviour! haha... but he realli very nice lo.. if not for him.. i will be damn bored for many many weeks again.. well not exactly bored but jus funni without internet.

now can blog wheneva i am home earli liao.. seriously i tink i miss home so much. haven been home d whole day since duno when. even if there's no one at home it still feels good.

did sum tinking.. reading n sleep. took medicine tat makes me drowsy, had d rest tat i realli deserved. feel great... hmmmm but now i feel like eating prata... chocolate... drink pink dolphin... eat sushi.. eat Old Chang Kee etc.. wa lau i drooling man

feels so cosy homey... hahah

- posted by lydia @ Tuesday, August 31, 2004

Monday, August 23, 2004 Â Â Â Â Â

I feel so handicapped without my internet connection.. my bro itchy fingers go reformat computer and now i can't go online n he duno how to configure the connection. I hate it man... realli nv felt so handicapped b4.. argh.... tink i prob wun be able to live without a computer.

anyway hmm.. i guess i have bin realli busy till i got no time to blog, to catch up wif my frenz.. no life nuthing! Haven been hearing from my frenz and ya heard that they met up a couple of times bt i duno anything abt it.. or prob it's asssumed tat i was bz and can't make it. anway prob i was... duno.. but was quite sure that i din noe anything.

Work's bin realli busy.. heavy workload working me out every single day. Sumtimes i do feel veryt ired.. esp at work. the kind of lethargic feeling simply just puts me off.. and i guess i treat every working day like it is war. War against time.. trying to complete the maximum amount of things in a day that i can. unfortunate things always happens and ya.. it did did n it did.

I miss my family.. i haven seen them for a long long time.. haiz.. only noe my mama is sick. Anyway time to put in more effort at home... but sumtimes it is just so difficult. communication is so so so important.. ah hahah but i seem to have lost touch of it.

wen i am feeling low how i wish sumone was dere.. the "one" whom i wish was dere.. but he wasn't. anyway no one will b dere all d time so watz new.. well well... sumhow life is jus unfair..unfair is not d word to use.. humph duno wat la... jus felt tat i gt sumthing to say but yet the words jus refused to spill out of me... n therefore.. al kept inside. ARGHHHH.. this is HORRIBLE.

Noe wat? People r simply jus fake sumtimes... (sori ppl no offence... jus generally) I mean i do believe there are sincere ppl but out dere... you c all kinds of ppl ... bitchy, fake, petty... blah blah blah the list goes on. of cuz jus saw the ugly side of humans... and ya starting to tink y humans r like tat...

Waiting for payday den i can catch up on shopping.. haven bin doing tat since duno wen... miss it lots.. lazing at cafes is one tat i miss too... suppers and dinners with frenz and of cuz movies... hmmm tinking things through i seem to be missing out on a lot ya?? time to catchg up.. ya besides that i tink wat i realli need is a GOOD book.. reading habit stopped and ya it's time to pick it all up again.

Sumtimes i jus wonder if i was just deceiving myself of my own emotions or am i running away from sumthing in reality.. i realli duno. jus had this weird feeling. seems like i am tinking a lot... jus feel tat i am always running away.... away from sumthing. ya deceiving myself is no fun esp if you onli find out after a long long while... and it brings back all the sadness.. though fond memories... afterall ya singlehood ain't tat bad but i tink without my hectic lifestyle now i dun tink i will say tat singlehood ain tat bad...

hey hey everyone's back from lunch and it means i gotta go cuz i haven been working all morning other than slacking and it is realli no good.. i mean before i gt SACKED... erm.. i missing sumthing.. maybe sumone maybe maybe maybe junk food from the supermarket (yum yum) wat about lotsa chocolate.. Mon Cherie sounds good.... wat bout Merci chocolate and den hmm.. lotsa biscuits, sweets and tidbits in my cabinet.. hmm shall do it tis weekend. pamper myself wif all this...erm.. sinful items???

Peeps: take care ya? i miss ya guys n ..... hope to many many of u soon......

ciaoz.. *drooling over my junk food

- posted by lydia @ Monday, August 23, 2004

Saturday, August 14, 2004 Â Â Â Â Â

hey guys... i am back!! hahaha... sounds like I haf bin away for so so long...

hmmm anyway ya i gt a hectic week. I feel proud tat I survive.. more n more focused at work!!! moving on great! hmmm... faster i hope... hahaha i impatient ger ma..

bt things at home nt too gd la.. anyway dun wana elaborate so much liao.. cuz i'm LATE!!!!

anyway to hao yun: I'm sorry i was not able to join u guys yesterday. Was cropped up with stuff.. Happy Birthday once again!!! Stay cheerful ya???

miss all of ya...
muacks

- posted by lydia @ Saturday, August 14, 2004

Monday, August 09, 2004 Â Â Â Â Â

hey guys finalli decided to blog at 450 am in d morning!!! haha.. still feel very energetic but ya all the rest i have for the past 2 days r gone!!! jus for tonite.. cuz i stayed up till so late. dere cums my panda eyes again...

well i am back from my short trip, 2 days 1 nite. where to???? hmmm... i duno leh.. sumwhere near Pahang???? anyway it is jus a resort stay. dad drove us in.. we set off at abt 645 in d morning n i din slp d nite b4. reached abt 2?? had lunch... din taste realli nice. anyway i went for a swim, den dinner. sumptuous dinner !!! games... fun time though.

den after tat went for a firefly tour.. hmmm hw would i describe it.. it's fascinating i would say. d starry sky tat u will neva find in s'pore. if u r r reading tis, try closing ur eyes n imagine.. dark blue sky wif lotsa stars n u r one a boat wif ur loved ones... in search of the fireflies to brighten ur night.

den as u sail through river in the pitch dark environment, u look up u c the sky lighted up by the stars den u look at d 2 sides of d shore.. at d trees n den u started to c little sparks of lights jus like the X'mas tree. d moment is so magical... so wonderful.

tt moment i realli felt great. realli fantastic.. though i wish i would sumone i love dearly to share tis wif but i feel it nv felt any beta wif my family arnd. peaceful feelin.. but many times was also feeling sad.. missing sumone in my heart.. no one in particular! jus miss d feeling of being in luv.. (* though jus gt single for a month) but realli missed the feeling of being in luv.

tots float in.. my future, wat i look forward to, wat i am working towards and many more... things tt i used to do.. flotas back. dere's a sense of fear in me, afraid to move on.. but in reality i wana move faster n faster. hmm.. hw contradicting!

bt nevatheless, i realli enjoyed tis trip though short bt hmmm... realli fulfilling. had quality time wif my family. imagine we laughed, joked n even sing thru out d journey!! ate together n do stuff together. family warmth n joy i missed, i long for.. all came back. nuthing felt betta...

hmmm woke up in d morning. went for breakfast den to d market. eye opener... different from S'pore. den went to aloe vera farm..realli hot.. i mean warm. den went on d way home.... hmmm.. den we eat all way n i slp all d way. haha... so piggy.

reach singapore abt 6 plus, bath den went out. haha.. superb rite?

ya.. i did enjoyed myself.... very much. all i wish is to be happier.. tired liao. gona slp soon.. nitex

- posted by lydia @ Monday, August 09, 2004