| Monday, September 20, 2004 Â Â Â Â Â |
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i miss things tt i used to do.. my family, my friends... n many more..
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hmmm.. long time since I last blog den since now i can take a little off time to blog i jolly well jus make use of this time. Maybe jus a reason for me to take work off my mind, blog & later focus on WORK later... Jus can't concentrate at work.. mind wanders to duno where...
well well... to ppl whom i haven seen for a long long time.. I hope all of you r doing fine! take good care ya.. nuthing to say about being busy or not making d effort. Time jus passes so fast.. duno... jus feel i am getting old n uglier.. full of outbreaks and fatigue is all over my face. i long for a holiday.. hmmm wat abt staying at resort.. banyan trees is appealing.. haha.. i talk so much but i can't get any off days nearer d end of da yr.. work is getting betta sumhow but workload is heavier... but at least i dun feel lost esp under da guidance of d manager... she's my idol man.. i realli have a taste of how fast she tinks.. n d patience she had.. well... i betta not test the limit of her patience. sudden gush of this uurge to go for movies alone.. hhahahaha... bin toking abt watching movie alone but till now i still haven. ah nvm.. if tt happens den it does. let nature takes its course. went mango to shop shop after meeting on fri and saw many many knitted tops n turtlenecks... ha.. my craze is back. things r so diiferent now.. realli miss school n my mama is gonna oush me to go study soon... but i still duno wat i wana do. jus particularly miss sumone.. jus sumone. he seems 2 b dere prob he is.. but jus duno how to tell him how much i actulli need him but was glad he was dere all along. his presence make me feel loved once again... so loved tt i jus wish......................................... *secret. tt sumone was in my mind.. i hope tt sumone noes.... anyway time to start pampering myself cuz i gona treat myself reali gd for the next month.. *hint hint... hahaha.... k la.. enuf of my duno-wat-2-write- anyhow- write nonsense. mus be so boring. while all stupids ideas going thru my head now n i can't concentrate :p Adios.. |
| Wednesday, September 15, 2004 Â Â Â Â Â |
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sumtimes it is so amazing how far one can do just for the things they wan.. well it's a motivation I guess. but everything cums with a price. jus felt that no matter whatever choice it is.. jus do not regret. Sumtimes dere are things that just can be undone. So y regret?
Maybe things may jus b a blessing in disguise. what i believe in now is whatever i do it is dere for a purpose. Jus bin thru a bit lately esp what happen at home.. jus feel sianz over tt stupid incident. drained emotionally. feel like a zombie.. Jus feel like being alone... doing nuthing. rot dere.. sumtimes or maybe rite now i jus feel like i living based on others time. *frustrated! Well... no one lives by others' mood n dere's no point but... ARGH.... nvm. Tink i am jus grouchy n tired. Missed my bed n soft toys. Missed the beach, sun n many more.. wateva slacking.. having a nice afternoon tea. but time... is an issue. priority is an issue. wat else? I long for my own leisure time.. which i feel so deprived of. gotta brush up my lousy time management skills i tink.. feelin lazy now.. so cold in d office. Laughter brings away all unhappiness but only for tt moment.. chocolate brings away stress only for a short time.. but at the end, happiness may be short-lived but it is definitely somehow or rather. "Personal growth can be painful, becuz it can make us feel ashamed & humiliated to face our own darkness. But our spiritual goal is the journey out of fear-based, painful mental habit patterns, to those of love & peace." I am wondering what haf i done... what haf i bin doing... *a sudden sense of regret... |
| Friday, September 10, 2004 Â Â Â Â Â |
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Morning ppl... hope u guys start off good early this morning. anyway jus kinda miss sumthing, sumone in my life. To ppl whom I have seen for long long time.. I prob gt no excuse but jus prob it's my turn to make tt effort. If i say wait, time jus dun wait. Guess i betta start getting my butt moving.
I used to haf tis fren who's alwiz dere but now he's jus too pre-occupied to even know wat am i doing.. is tat the value of frenship? fren, where r u??? if u noe who u r! or prob u jus simpy.... argh nvm forget it! Well i prob duno watz happening 2 u oso.. well.. duno. jus feel lost for this moment. yup lost.. but anyway gotta pen off right away n FOCUS on my work if not i gonna gt sacked.. ciaoz |
| Wednesday, September 08, 2004 Â Â Â Â Â |
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hey peeps.. how haf all of u bin? good i hope.. things aren't doing very well on my side. well.. ya bascially i am facing a lot of probs and ya i am trying desperately o solve them. A lot of things i feel ppl onli tink of their own feelings esp when they tink dey are the victim but wat abt the rest?
well... spare a tot for those arnd you and maybe things may be betta... i mean that is one of the things that i learned n prob from the least expected person. well.. peeps it's late i gotta sleep. need it badly so ciaoz... but b4 jus wana say.. do take lotsa care ya?? Muacks!!! |
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