lydia's world...

Sunday, August 28, 2005 Â Â Â Â Â

i am lost.. lost in my world of tots.. watz promises is this world? it no longer meant anything.

i am still trying to make out wat the msg was from the 2 notes d cab uncle gave me.

tmr is mon!!!!!!!!!!!!! but no monday blues for me cuz i am not working.. but know wat... from tmr onwards i am goona send all my resumes diligently.

speechless...

- posted by lydia @ Sunday, August 28, 2005

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i duno y am i blogging at this hour.. so earli in d morning bt i jus nid to blog it off my chest.

i know sum r reading my blog trying to figure out what i meant.. i am sorry if i haf bin bad or nasty.

hw ironical... hw amazing luv is.. u noe wen i had a bad bad day... i wished in my heart for sumone to gif me directions.. n amazingly God is telling me sumthing.. it is more den coincidence hw i feel God is telling me sumthing.

as 4 tat sum1 tat i hope u will read this entry.. let me know if u read this ya?

i put in wat i haf n d result is wat i've seen... tell me wat u wan? is tis wat i deserved? d promises u used to make, dun u rem them? if u dun.. i do! d tym tt we spent together.. d fun we had.. i always rem.

i may seem to u tat i am jus so xiao sa.. bt i am not.. i am a gal after all.. a human i mean.. my feelings r real. i care, i still do. i love n i always did.. i needed u n i will always wan to nid u.. n SERIOUSLY i miss u.. i wished i was d one dere for u wen u needed sumone.. bt i realise... otherwise. tell me if i am wrong... tell me i am tinking too much.

i am not happy.. i seemed to be cheerful in front of the others.. deep down it hurts big tym.. i jus wan u to call n msg... but again.. u din...

is tis wat we will end up in? was it jus a dream?

i am tired.. i can't slp.. i wish u picked up my calll.. i wished we haf a gd talk.. wru? i nid u baby... wherE?

- posted by lydia @ Sunday, August 28, 2005

Friday, August 19, 2005 Â Â Â Â Â

duno y i would like to blog at this moment.. bt for those who read my entry earlier.. i am fine now. but suffering from severe headache nowadays... maybe cuz i am under lotsa stress...

i nid a JOB badly.... very badly.. anyone got any to recommend call me ya?

i miss.. sum ppl in my life.. realli.. b it tat i did not make the efforts.. but i realli gt my difficulties.. i am sorry...

tired... gona slp soon... but oops.. wait.. looking forward to few hours from now..

- posted by lydia @ Friday, August 19, 2005

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Monday, August 15, 2005 Â Â Â Â Â

pissed pissed and pissed... horribly pissed... i jus dun get it.. y is it me me n me who is affecting whoeva.. it's always me!!!!!!!!!! sumhow i jus feel like leaving. everything is jus not good rite from the start.. maybe i shouldn't haf... jus shouldn't haf....

i jus duno how.. anyway i JUST DUN WAN TO BE DA VICTIM TO SUMONE'S HORRIBLE DAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! if u ever read i am not the cauze to everything i am sick and tired of this... tink it feels gd.. well it dun.. not a single bit.

i wished u nv existed in my memories... get the hell out of my life...

- posted by lydia @ Monday, August 15, 2005