lydia's world...

Monday, January 29, 2007 Â Â Â Â Â

hw's weekends? Isn't that a common question everyone ask? my weekend is like half sucky and half nice.. haha how abt tat..

just wanted to share that the movie "Happy Birthday" was nice.. to me if u noe why, u will understand why it touches my heart.

and i received this email and i can only say it touches my heart and i just wanted to share..

Two tear drops were floating down the river.

one teardrop said to the other, "i'm the teardrop of a girl who loved a man and lost him. who are you?" "i'm the teardrop of the man who regret letting a girl go....."

she teardrop consoled, "there would come a time when we have to stop loving someone because we found out that they'd be happier if we let them go..."

he teardrop replied, "but then you'll know that you miss someone very much when every time you think of that person, your heart breaks into pieces and just a quick 'Hello' from that person brings the broken pieces back..."

she teardrop said, "it's really painful to say goodbye to someone else that you don't want to let go; but it's even more painful to ask someone to stay if you can never make the relationship work out the way it should be." she continued, "LOVE? it's kind of complicated, but i'll tell you this... the second you're willing to make yourself miserable to make someone else happy, that's love right there...."

he teardrop pondered and said, "you know, if i had the letters "HRT", i can add "EA" to get a "HEART" or a "U" and get "HURT". but i'd rather choose "U" and get "HURT" than have a "HEART" without "U"... she teardrop smiled and replied, "giving someone all your love is not an assurance that she will love you back. don't expect love in return, wait for it to grow in her heart, if it doesn't, be contented it grows in yours." he teardrop continued, "she told me once, do not be too good, i will miss you. don't be too caring; i might like you. don't be too sweet; i might fall for you."

she teardrop smiled and said, "A heart truly in love never loses hope but always believes." She teardrop continued, "if you love her please let her know because it hurts to love when you have to go. take care of me; don't go away because if you love me, you will stay... i love you and do you know why? you got me when you first said 'Hi'"

he teardrop said, "you are brave she teardrop, now i know it's always better to have found the courage to love even if you lose it in the end rather than never found love because you were too afraid of the challenge." he teardrop continued further, "did you know that the expression "Nothing" is the subconscious mind's way of saying I Love You... that's what i do, i told her NOTHING and because of that i lost her even though i love her... i cry for the time that she was almost mine, i cry for the memories i've left behind, i cry for the pain, the lost, the old and the new. i cry for the times i thought i had her!"

she teardrop consoled, "Relationships are like glass, sometimes it is better to leave them broken than try to hurt yourself putting it back together, or worse, have nothing strong to bind it together. you never lose in loving. you only lose in holding back." h

e teardrop cried,"Now i know, i have learned. don't throw your back to love when it's already in front of you, don't drive it away from you because if you did, someday you'll think again why you let love fly away when it was once next to YOU..."

ciaoz...

- posted by lydia @ Monday, January 29, 2007

Tuesday, January 23, 2007 Â Â Â Â Â

hey hey I am back again...into blogging... dun ask me why.. even if no one reads it i dun care... i jus wanted to get it off n out of my chest.

Fell sick... after so long.. fell sick again.. at work now but.. maybe becuz i m too tired n sick i became not myself. Jus lethargic... feel confused... abt a lot of things

Sumtimes i wonder why do humans do things tat they obviously noe it's wrong and still do it. Is it just at the spur of moment? i lost it.. i lost myself in the maze i spoke about in my earlier blog.. i feel lost in my life.. jus distracted...

watz happening to my heart... while his already belong to someone else.. rather to many ppl.

results is slow.. wished i could something to better imrpove it but no one to guide me.. bleh...
gt improvement course to attend but duno if i wanna go a not.. cuz gt terms and conditions...

i wish for a bear hug.. a shoulder.. a listening ear.. someone to hold me.. someone for me to tell him i luv him.. sumone whom i can dote..

haha... jus ranting.. focus should be at work..

ciaoz

- posted by lydia @ Tuesday, January 23, 2007

Monday, January 22, 2007 Â Â Â Â Â

jus wen i blog abt it.. i lost it.. feel bothered.. confused and lost.. duno what i should do... seems like it is wrong but.. why.. maybe i jus nid time alone.. alone...

tired... i nid a break

- posted by lydia @ Monday, January 22, 2007

Thursday, January 18, 2007 Â Â Â Â Â

alone in the office now.. waiting for my boss to come back... long time since i blog!! well i guess i chose nt to blog for a while...

i am getting on good.. happier now of cuz.. with my new job. definitely happier.. probably becuz of the new environment and a brand new set of things to learn. have to of cuz forgo the travelling which i am sure i missed it already and of cuz the kinda corporate image that my ex-company used to haf... but well things can only turn for the better not that it will not turn for the worse... but trying to look positive.

life goes on with or without anyone i guess... no doubt i will feel lonely. no doubt i will miss him.. but he is getting on very well now.. it hurts esp when u noe tt the person his heart now belongs to someone else and tt sumone is sumwhat like u.. it hurts when he tell u not to ask why her not myself... but it is all over.. OVER.... I am over it as well.. so i simply dun deserve this... i jus look forward to have him as a very good fren... it takes time...

i have lived a eventful life from 2006 to this new yr 2007.... things die down n sumhow i guess it will pick up again...

Along this period many suitors but none have captured my heart.. not i didn't try to give a chance but i jus cannot convince myself.. maybe it is jus me maybe jus not compatible.. but sumhow i seem to lost part of my heart to someone which i noe it will not be possible.. maybe i will jus choose to live with it till tt one person realli appear... Sometimes i ask if i wanna jus choose to be someone who loves me more than i love that person but will i realli be happy? Leave it to Cupid i guess...

talking about new job.. hahha... it is more tiring.. no more jus simply office hours... it is LONG hours.. but i am enjoying it.. but seem like i am having no life.. everyday is work and sleep... haha... challenging of cuz.. a lot of learning on my own... a lot of observing and making use of what i have.. doing sales is sumthing new.. needless to say networking. Today was like my first attempt.. was like.. hahah.. nid to brush up for sure...

thinking of hw to hit my target is enuff to keep busy sumtimes thru my lonely nites.. sometimes i jus wish for a fren.. to tok to.. yet sumtimes no one call anymore.... lonely gal tt's what i am....

started school and i quit... cuz work dun allow me to study... good decision though.. cuz i seriously cannot cope... gt nice colleagues at work...

missed my ex colleagues ....

a lot of things seem to be on my mind but... can't get it off.. yearning for a drink...

btw anyone whu needs catering... let me know...

gtg.. ciaoz

- posted by lydia @ Thursday, January 18, 2007