| Wednesday, March 28, 2007 Â Â Â Â Â |
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in my office now.. if u ask me why am i blogging now is because i jus wanna take a freaking break.. work till 530am tis morning. reached home at 6am. my dinner became my breakfast.. feel guilty if i dun eat.. by the time i finish my bath and food.. it is 7am..goodness gracious. this is the third time in this week.... Started work at like 1130 so i barely slp... good slp starts at 7 n end at 9 cuz my fone starts ringing n i bet u wun wanna be in my shoes... long day n nite today n tmr.. till the weekends.. i miss my BED.. it is how amazing i come to realise tat i miss my frens, social life n good time with my family... now i realli appreciate the time i haf for myself, frens, family and SLEEP or REST. Sumtimes i wonder if drinking wif colleagues became my onli leisure time.. it can be depressing u noe.. in my mind i am onli telling myself.. winners nv quit n quittors nv win.. i wanna standby tat. i hope lady luck will fall in luv with me n be with me.. n Cupid oso...haha... i tink i am like a tired gal uttering rubbish here la..well thanks all whu patronise this tired gal's blog for her rubbish.. haha frens whu have stand by me thru tis times, u r nt forgotten... frens whu i haven seen for a long long time u r nt forgotten cuz i miss everyone... |
| Tuesday, March 27, 2007 Â Â Â Â Â |
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hey hey.. feel like i cannot work anymore so i need to take a breakie.. den i decided to blog.. work has bin crazily busy.. am happy keeping myself busy thou... haha... jus tired.. ever thot hw ppl will tink u r still not over them.. haha.. sorry guys but sumtimes i do feel that certain guys tend to have that kind of thinking that in whatever situations ppl they used to be able to charm will always be head over heels over them.. get that clear in your head.. if you r history u r history.. i feel so exhausted.. i jus wan 2 days to slp.. be alone... spend good quality time.. i wan a good break... i.. duno.. haha... sian Sian SIan SIAn SIAN... haha.. true enuff i tink i am bored.. i duno what i am blogging about now.. jus typing n typing rubbish... |
| Thursday, March 22, 2007 Â Â Â Â Â |
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back to post something that i would like to post suddenly.... how nice if i have someone to love.. to be in love.. crazily in love.. but i dun haf... haha.. got suitors la.. but... i duno.. jus nt working out... maybe it is me.. sumhow i am jus scared of being hurt again.. my heart is in pieces.. mending them back now... mum bought a damn cool thing la.. a lcd water heater.. haha.. now i can bath in my hot water... i noe love is not the onli thing in my head.. cuz my love for others is more than the personal relationship that i wan... i dun freaking have time for my family, frens and even my dog.. how to handle so many things.. i feel kinda lost now.. thinking over a major decision now.. i miss school.. i miss the beach.. i miss crazy partying... i miss slping in till late.. i miss travelling... i miss hugs.. kisses...the hollow feelings... i wanna watch phantom of the opera... i wanna snuggle in bed with jus sumone... but there ain't. lady luck is not my side... |
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morning peeps.. haha.. i am a satisfied gal now... dear colin brought me for steamboat... hah.. actualli it is becuz i called him and we are talking and i told him abt my this crave for steamboat. but i got to tell you the place we went was realli good.. good soup base... good chive dumplings.. good service.. n i ate hell loads...till colin shakes his head.. haha anyway there is a point that I want to make.. dun take me like i am a info counter or only come to me when u nid help.. i can be very nice n help but dun let it get on my nerves.. work gonna be crazy soon.. anyway i tink my crazy life have prob died down... i nid a break man... a holiday... ok.. back to work. |
| Tuesday, March 20, 2007 Â Â Â Â Â |
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at work now.. everyone seems very busy.. but i seem like i am quite free but i tink better check if i gt anything to clear... feel sad.. i noe i am not gg to be nice anymore.. haha i wanna be evil.. haha.. haf heart of stone... i long for steamboat so so so so much... but no one to go with me.. humph... maybe go buy book to read... |
| Monday, March 19, 2007 Â Â Â Â Â |
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bin a week since i last post? this week is crazy man... bin working realli hard.. rather din realli slp. finali haf the time and the mood to start blogging all over again.. suddenly i sat and start to tink about a lot of things. tinking what haf bin happening for the last few weeks. firstly i would like to thank those whu haf stood by my side when i am at the bottom of my life. i admit i haf nt bin treating myself well.. in a certain sense i have abused myself thru drinking even when i am seriously ill... i cried hard also.. then suddenly i felt silly n overstressed... feel depressed.. feel shitty.. super exhausted. went to join pearl, jack, angie and mingli for movie after work on fri.. supposed to club but angie can't so went for movie instead... when i sat in the movie theatre.. i felt like.. i haven watched movie for a long long time.. it feels so good esp when i am with them.. frens for half of a decade.. it counts.. the movie brings me back to school times... Realised everything requires efforts.. miss angela, tania and the gals... it's angela's birthday celebration.. we all conspired.. but glad to know she enjoyed.. i had a good time joining them too... feel so deprived of it... gals i miss you!!! went to cafe del mar ( did i spell correctly?) haha.. loads of different feelings.. hehe.. one is definitely it feels good to be hanging out with angela and company.. two is it feels good drinking with tania again.. i haf nt bin drinking in order to recover... three is it is good peaceful time.. a bit of catching up and everything.. four.. i found 3 familiar characters sitting at the same table and it brings me back to yrs back when we sit at the kopitiam.. hehe...supper was good.. slp at onli 6.. went to Popo's house.. to have lunch. it is like every 2 months affair but i make it a point to go as i realli din have time to go n visit her.. on top of that she is not well... it feels sad. i hear her tok abt her condition den i got reminded that i may jus lose her anytime... jus like the feeling i have abt my dad.. i feel guilty of nt being able to spend more time with her.. u all noe she is so important to me.. in her eyes today i saw fatigue, helplessness, loneliness and a lot more.. my heart hurts. trouble at home once again.. daddy got on everyone's nerves.. lately even i am in a foul mood most of the times.. dun ask why cuz i dun have any answer to it. be glad i am have been patient and din even feel that you are selfish when u oso tink u r... ( tinking back to some incidents last week). back tracked.. now back again.. the quarrels hurts.. i dun wanna b mean.. i am angry, upset and a lot more.. mummy is leaving for one mth for work.. i am gonna miss her.. nw i question myself.. full of doubts for myself.. n a lot of what ifs... i feel lonely.. i miss having someone by my side.. enuff said.. it is 1.30am now.. i betta get to bed.. nid to be punctual tmr.. so good nite peeps.. have a week ahead. |
| Monday, March 12, 2007 Â Â Â Â Â |
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monday blues... woke up at 730 happily go wash up and whu noes i fell back to slp again.. damn comical rite.. den become late for work. feeling funny.. been realli sick lately.. went for javanese massage to cure my backache n the massage was super painful as i was realli realli realli sick.... so yup... with much much much rest i have realli bin a lot better... so ya.. back to work... bin a gd gal... went to church.. hehe... n his words tells me a lot... i thank him for whu i am... someone boiled soup for me.. more than one day's work.. it is like super nice la... yum yum... met up with ryan for a feast on fri despite being sick and shd refrain from forbidden food but ryan as usual pampering me will jus allow me to eat lo... hehe... see he treat me realli well.. without him i duno how lor... feels so good to see him after so long! Sat - am supposedly to go suntan with the usual clique but sick cat me cannot go cuz i nid to firm up on one big deal which will costs me my fingers.. n oso can't afford to go under the sun and enjoy the sea breeze cuz i will be sick again.. so i joined them for dinner at din tai feng... haha.. n drinks at No.5 den home... den indian rojak.. glutton rite.. hehe no wonder i am putting on weight.. tt's abt it.. getting into trouble at work.. it is full of shit.. i gt myself into shit.. so ya..tt's abt it.. |
| Tuesday, March 06, 2007 Â Â Â Â Â |
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actually wanted to blog about my melancholy n my gloominess but when i saw my last post i got reminded that i wanna blog abt the "baby" i wanted... hahaha and suddenly i seem to cheer up a little... so anyway talking abt the "baby" i wan.. initially it was just a car.. haha aspiration comes from a fren's msn nick.. how we talked about the irony and so on.. den sumhow our conversation inspired me to have one oso.. i mean it is not impossible... so... anyway this sub nick gt me many ppl asking abt it.. like whether isit that i wanna settle down.. n it make me wanna luff... no partner how to settle down.... But seriously about the car.. right now finances don't allow me to but i will work hard on it. then one night one fren msn me and asked da same qn.. n he started to guess.. the added meaning of the word "baby". He said "Baby" = bf, baby, car, bag, etc... haha.. n at tat point maybe he realli make me realise ya hor.. it meant it all... i oso long for someone whu will love me and i to be in love with him... but no one in mind.. cannot open my heart! I pray silently to him and i hope he hears me... |
| Thursday, March 01, 2007 Â Â Â Â Â |
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haha.. suddenly on my mind i wan a "baby"... haha.. wat is it? i will tell u later... Labels: i wan a "baby" |
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